Not everything changes…

I wrote about some of the changes, but there are some things that haven’t changed.  I am still figuring out my hormone situation.  I went back to the nutritionist for after a year of not taking any supplements or talking to him.  I wanted to see what my body would do without the supplements and herbs, hoping that it would balance itself out on its own.  But I guess for that you need balance in your life.  I wouldn’t say that would perfectly describe the past year of my life as I wrote about previously.  Great? Absolutely.  Balanced?  No.
Last year started with packing on 10 pounds a month from the herbs that he had me on, which he promised would “just come right off” when I was off of them…well if “right off” meant over a year, then he might have been right.  When I came off of the herbs the weight stopped increasing, but did not just come right off.
I was slowly losing weight this year and dropped two of the four sizes that I added to my closet, then shortly after the wedding that seemed to stop.  My work pants started feeling a little bit more snug again, and I am back up about one size.  “OK, I can handle this.  My waist size does not define me, and my husband loves me just the way I am.”  Those were my thoughts, and I really was fine.  James was great and seems to say the perfect things.  I jokingly get onto him for that when he makes me cry because he says just the right thing!  Silly boy.  Anywho, so I put on a little weight (I don’t own a scale – so I have no idea how much) then I started getting breakouts again.  Are you serious?  I am 27 years old, I thought I was past this whole breakout thing.  The icing on the cake was this April when my allergies flared up.  I haven’t had allergy symptoms in four years..then I got hit hard.  I couldn’t breathe.  My asthma was terrible.  We called my parents one night and they found an inhaler that they delivered at 9PM…which had expired in 2007.  But it worked, so I was not about to complain.  I could breathe.
That was it.  I had enough with getting frustrated with my body and wondering what in the world was going on.  I figured it was hormone related, so I called to make an appointment with my nurse practitioner and nutritionist.  I couldn’t get into either until late May/early June so I waited…impatiently of course.
I went to the nutritionist yesterday, and he confirmed my suspicions.  It is my hormones.  He believes that what I had been though in a ten month timeframe was stressful for my system even though I didn’t feel stressed.  I believe that, and there were definitely moments I felt stressed!  Not around the wedding, but other things going on at the end of last year.  He believes that I have estrogen dominance and it isn’t getting out of my system and slowing down my liver which caused my allergies to flare up again.  He thinks that we caught it early and that I am teetering on the edge, so he called yesterday with the supplement list and got them shipped my way.  I am ready to start them, and ready to be done.  I am not looking forward to jacking with my hormones again, but if it fixes them I suppose it is worth it.
James has repeatedly told me that we will do whatever we have to do to get me healthy again, and I am so thankful for his response and understanding to my concerns.  I don’t want to go through the saliva tests and such that I did in 2013 for hormone and adrenal panel, but I guess I will if I have to.  I am not looking forward to that.  I really hope these supplements work.
I have also begun dabbling in essential oils.  I used lemon, lavender, and peppermint in local honey for my allergies and it really seemed to work.  I forgot one day and me and my office neighbors regretted it from my nose blowing the whole morning.  I will continue to trial different things with them and see how they work.  I am typically up for “hippy dippy doo dah” things like the oils.  I am getting my hand scanned tomorrow to see what oils this contraption believes I need.  This scanner seems hippy dippy and far out there even for me, so that is saying something.  Apparently it is based on quanutm physics…part of me thinks they say that so you don’t question how it really works and the validity of it. “O, it is quatum physics, you just wouldn’t understand.”  Try me, I will do my best to keep up.  I suppose it is too quick for me to judge since I haven’t ever seen this thing in person, so I will go in with an open mind…and palm.
This post was not about a cute puppy story, I am sorry.  Those will come.  Instead I will leave you with a cute puppy picture.  This is when we had all of the snow around here.  She found a warm spot in front of the fireplace and it got to the point that she would bark at it if she were cold and it weren’t on!  She’s a smart one.  My husband made it in the picture to, isn’t he fabulous?  He doesn’t have a crazy mustache, that is just what it looks like in the picture…



O yeah, I have a blog.   And a dog!

And a new job…and husband…and new house…

Things have changed a bit since I have written a post, and for that I apologize.  A quick snapshot of events in chronological order; James transferred locations, he proposed, we bought a house, he surprised me with a puppy, I went back to my old job, and we got married.  I think that is how it all went down.  That all happened in just under 4 months, no big deal really.

How did all of that happen so quickly!?  My HR manager wondered the same thing as she was shocked to see my calm composure and no grey hair while planning a wedding in three months.  We are incredibly blessed, and I found a man who doesn’t let things stress him out!  Our goal was to have a wedding with as little stress as possible, and I would like to say we were successful.  What is the key to having a low-stress wedding?  For us it was to realize it isn’t about that one day.  Yes, that day is great – but it is about the MARRIAGE and life that you are about to begin together!  When looking at it from that perspective, the extravagant wedding day just did not make sense to us.  It also doesn’t hurt that we are both project oriented and have careers that are timeline and cost driven, so we got a lot of things done very quickly in order to check things off of the list.  If we could do it online, we did it.  If something wasn’t necessary, then it probably didn’t get purchased and I doubt people missed it…if they did then I didn’t hear about it. They will get over it.

We have been married for a little over two months now, and we are training our puppy little by little.  She is a bit of a mess at times, but then she is so sweet and cute you just can’t be mad at her!  She is half American Pit and half American Bully, so she will be a big girl.  She is five months old and her shoulders are up to my knee in height, but I think she is slowing down growing vertically and beginning to broaden out.  She is growing into her legs!  She was one leggy pup for a bit.  My family seems to enjoy the stories of her going into the neighbor’s pond then hiding under our bed and barking at me in protest of being out of the pond and bathed, so I will have some of those to share in the future.  Right now you can enjoy the picture of the day we got her and stare in awe of her adorableness.  She isn’t that small anymore, but she is still adorable! :-)


Beautiful Surrender

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAWhat a blessing to be a blessing!

I was blessed this past weekend to work another Walk to Emmaus, and it did not disappoint. It was an amazing weekend experiencing an outpouring of God’s love.
There is a moment during the weekend where most women realize their brokenness and lay it down. That was such a beautiful moment to me. To see these women broken and laying down their; fears, frustrations, worries, and past at the foot of the cross and know that it is all forgiven and made clean through Christ’s love and sacrifice? Probably my favorite part of the weekend. As crazy as it sounds, it is true. I was afraid that I might get into a bit of trouble after, but I could not wipe the smile off of my face. I was grinning and had tears of happiness in my eyes as I thought of what these women were picking up when they laid all of that down. They are picking up the joy, peace, and love that comes with fully allowing Christ to have it all! Who could ask for anything more? Will it be all rainbows and butterflies from now on? Nope. There will be challenges, struggles, temptations, and sin; but to have the hope and love of Christ, to live in expectation of the glorious banquet that awaits us when this temporary life is through makes it all worth it. We even get to experience God’s love and gifts while here on this earth! They are around us, we just have to open our eyes to see them waiting on us, wooing us back into His loving arms.
We are all broken vessels, but it is through the cracks that His light shines through.

Health Update


This is my Halloween post! OK, not really. This is my health update. I just know you are curious.

A quick recap of where I was at the last time I wrote in December:

I figured out I was in stage 3 adrenal fatigue and had basically no female hormones. I was on liquid herbs that made me anxious and jittery, and I was gaining weight at a rapid pace.

I finished the 4 months of herbs in April, and had to buy a pant size larger every month until I was done. That was frustrating, but I pushed through. I didn’t see my nutritionist throughout this time, he wanted me to just stay on the herbs and complete the 4 months then see him. He said that my next step was a detox that would pull the water weight right off of me in a few short weeks and I would be back to normal. Welp, that didn’t work. I did the detox and actually gained a little weight. It was 10 days of no meat or caffeine, that was tough – not going to lie. So after the detox I went back to see him and he said, “you are doing much better than anticipated, you can tell you have been eating 100% right. All we have left are your hormones, and you should be good to go.” That was in early May and I pushed through that month with no results, so I was done. I wanted to see what my body would do off of supplements because I have been on them for so long, and I was tired of hearing, “this is all that is left, you are doing great, just a little bit more.” Whatever. Something is not working and the supplements are not helping at this point. I haven’t really seen any change, good or bad, while off of the supplements; so I think that is a good thing. He did a lot of good for me, I am not denying that at all. I am glad that I went to see him and have made improvements from where I was in the beginning of the whole journey.

That brings me to this week. There was a health fair at work and a chiropractor that I have been thinking about visiting had a booth set up. I stopped by and had an initial posture check and found that I have three points greater than 1/2″ out of alignment, which is “severe.” I made an appointment for Thursday afternoon and went for an initial consultation; assessment, xrays, and adjustment. After my inital check he identified that my left shoulder was higher than right, right shoulder was tilted forward, head tilted left, right hip higher, and 19 out of 27 vertebrae didn’t move as they should. (“Um, what!?”) He looked at my symptoms sheet and said, “this all correlates with what I found, let’s get you in for an x-ray.”

In the x-ray it was found that I have scoliosis of my lower back, and my neck has a reverse curve. REVERSE.

I looked at the image and said, “well, it isn’t TERRIBLE.”

Chiropractor: “It’s reversed, you have a 109% change in the curve of your neck.”

Me: “Oh….”

Yeah, so that is good to know. I will be going to see him for the next several weeks for an adjustment and rehab to get things back to where they should be. He anticipates a full recovery. He quickly identified that I am the type of person to go all out to do things right. I may or may not be a perfectionist in things I can control…I should work on that.

I was sending text messages to my family after and when I said I have scoliosis my dad quickly picked up the phone to call me. “Go to a REAL doctor, Jen!” O, here we go.

I have been to several doctors over the years; have had sonograms, MRIs, x-rays, biopsies, and even a CAT scan. We have ruled out PCOS, MS, tumors, etc. This makes sense to me that this is related to my spine. This is the missing link. God designed our bodies to work well and to heal, but when the nervous system isn’t functioning correctly it can’t work at 100% capacity. Where is your nervous system? Your spine! And mine needs help.

I am excited to get started on this next step in my journey. After the first adjustment I woke up before my alarm and felt well-rested. I’ll take that!


It is a Saturday in September, therefore college football is on. Duh. :-) James is watching the game as I finish the Divergent series. I read the first book early this year, started the second, but didn’t finish it. I am planning to start it over and finish the series soon. It isn’t too shabby; we watched the movie and kept saying things similar to “That isn’t how it happens in the book!” We had the same issue with Heaven is for Real. Great book! The movie wasn’t bad, but there were some differences that I didn’t find particularly necessary.
So, a bit of a fill in on my life from my absence – my boyfriend’s name is James and I met him last April at an Emmaus event. We started dating at the end of December and were doing the distance relationship thing until June when I got a job with the same company he is with and I moved! He is an electrical engineer and I am mechanical…we could probably make some cool stuff together lol we have put together a hammock, that is as much as we have built together. But it went really well! I was pleased with that; those moments can get a little heated – especially when you have two engineers together. He is quite a blessing, I could not have imagined a more perfect person for me! God’s plans are much better than our own. His timing and plans are perfect. More on that later ;-)
Anywho, yesterday I was eating lunch with a co-worker and a woman came in the room who I have only spoken to in passing. She was talking about someone that she doesn’t get along with and ended with “respect is earned, not given” while shaking her finger. Now, she started her conversation with my co-worker as; “this doesn’t leave this room…” while I am sitting right there at the table. She does’t know me from Eve, yet she is going off about someone saying that she doesn’t want to tell others. Yeah, I am sure we are the only people she is saying this to…I took that as, “I am going to tell you, and the people down the hall, and anyone else who will listen.” I am obviously not going to go into what she was saying, because it isn’t to leave the room. I keep secrets. And it didn’t matter anyways. O drama. Anyways – the point of this was her statement of “respect is earned, not given” I have been thinking about this for most of the morning. I have agreed with this statement in the past and even said it myself a few times. However, I have reached a point in my life where I struggle with this. People deserve respect. All people; no matter who they are or what they do – deserve respect. We are all making an impact on those around us, good or bad. We are all making a difference, and I believe that most people want to feel as if they matter. I know that it is not easy to treat everyone with respect due to their behavior or their reputation, but I still think that it should be done! (trust me – I have a hard time doing this at times)
We don’t know or understand what others are really going through. We don’t know what in their past has caused them to become who they are today, so why not give them the benefit of doubt and believe that they are truly good people somewhere inside!? I know when I was at a low point with my eating disorder and such I was not always a good person to those that I love. I am not going to lie – I was cranky and not fun to be around. I had a lot of stuff going on that I didn’t even realize at the time. I look back now and realize I was not myself during that time, but that has changed. I am happier now than I have ever been before, and probably more empathetic and compassionate towards others. It took me several years to get to this point, but it was worth the valley. Maybe others are in the valley.

I try to keep in mind Maya Angelou’s quote:
People will forget what you said
People will forget what you did
But people will never forget how you made them feel.

Respect everyone. They have been through a journey that we know nothing about.

I’m back!

I haven’t forgotten that I have a blog, I just haven’t taken the time to write anything for it :-/  I have had a busy year; through May I was traveling every weekend or had a guest, June I got a new job and moved 70 miles away, and have been traveling quite a bit since. I used to write on Saturdays,  but my Saturdays filled up and I lost track of time!  I will fill in some details now that football season is around. I am not a fan, but my boyfriend is…so I will have some time. Until then, I will leave you with this picture I took in southern Illinois a few weeks ago.  :-)


Some Shocking Truth


There are 27 million people alive in slavery today.TODAY. In 2014.  It is hard for me to wrap my brain around the fact that this happens and is so prevalent, it is disgusting.

It sickens me that there is a market for this, people sell people because people buy people.  People steal, manipulate, and abuse people because people BUY people.

As you know, I tend to get on a soapbox about some things and human trafficking is one of them.  I have been around people who have poked fun at it and it didn’t take long for them to figure out my stance. This is not a joke, it is not funny. It is true, it is damaging, it is evil.

Just wanted to share this image, the Super Bowl is a high traffic time in the US. Be informed.

#ShockingTruth #EndIt #SuperBowl

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