Aida anyone? …anyone? It’s another great musical you are missing out on if you haven’t seen it! Seriously, check it out, you won’t regret it. Unless you don’t like musicals, then you might not get it.
So, good news today! I heard back from my liver doctor and my blood work came back normal! No more elevated liver levels! They have been high for the past 4 years, so I was very surprised and excited that they have come down.
This leads me to the point of my post today. I have had elevated liver enzymes for four years and haven’t had a doctor that was able to give me a reason as to why they are elevated. I have been very frustrated and tired of going from one specialist to another to rule out yet another diagnosis. I was to the point that I didn’t really care what they said as long as they could explain what in the world was going on leading to this. I am an engineer – everything works together and happens for a reason, I wanted root cause of my elevated liver levels and low hormones.
Some things don’t have an answer or a definite cause that we will understand, and I am VERY SLOWLY learning to accept that. My journey to health has been a learning experience with many ups and downs, but I wouldn’t change any of it. Well, if I could I might change some parts…I wasn’t always the most pleasant person to be around. Thank you to those who put up with me through it, without that support I definitely would still be struggling with the demons. You guys rock.
Patience is not my strongest suit, so these words (quote above) stood out to me last week. I read this last Tuesday night in my book, “Learning to be You” and thought back on the things that have happened in my life the past few years. I changed my habits, lost weight, worked as a co-op, finished school, and am now back in my home town as a mechanical engineer…where I really didn’t think that I would end up. It really is crazy how things have worked out so that I have ended up right where I need to be. I am sometimes afraid that I am just “settling” to be living here, but think through all of the things that got me here and know that it is where God wants me to be right now. I am hoping that if He has another plan for me He will make it as clear as He did for my sister. That would be nice, no questions about where to go from here.
So after I read that on Tuesday I was super shocked when I read my Jesus Calling daily calendar on Thursday and it started with this, “Rest in me, my child, forgetting about the worries of the world…” Man. Just what I needed to hear, it had been a busy/stressful week. (I cry when I get exhausted and I got teary eyed at work – bad sign) I then read the scriptures that were listed on the bottom of the page and…oh boy (scriptures shown below).
“…not from rules about food…” Well dang. I was surprised to read these scriptures that morning but I guess I really shouldn’t have been. I have been praying about my physical healing and have been working towards that with my physicians and nutritionist, so coincidence? I think not.
How much do we worry and stress over things that we really can’t control? God is in control, and He lets us know throughout our lives. I continually struggle with not worrying and “letting go and letting God” because my flesh gets in the way and I feel like I know best. It is my life, I know what I am doing, right? I need to remind myself that I am His life, His creation, and what I do should bring Him the glory.
I am really working on this patience situation when it comes to a relationship…this one has been a little more difficult for me. I’m 25, I’m not getting any younger here! It is tough in my small town; everyone seems to be in a relationship. I am the only single engineer at the plant…I’m just saying. I notice these things. I just keep trying to remind myself how awesome it will be when I meet the person He has planned for me. God has perfect timing, and I am praying for patience as I wait. (sometimes impatiently)
What are you waiting for?
Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV):
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.